Crazy Symptoms.

It is amazing how one moment I can swear I am pregnant and then the next I feel like my period is going to start any moment.

I had my first IUI on 10/21/2012 and I am going to be 10 DPIUI tomorrow. My breasts are the sorest they have ever been, my BBT chart looks amazing, but I am sitting here with my usual period type cramps, though I will admit they are days early.

I plan to test tomorrow. I know it is too early to probably get a BFP but I just want to try for a cool Halloween honey we are pregnant thing. My irrational fear though is my period is going to start tomorrow because every time I have ever taken a HPT when I thought there was a real chance I could be pregnant, my period has started that day, with out fail.

I hate how I am feeling right now and I hate how scared I am about these cramps. Usually when my breasts do usually get sore, it disappears right before my period but instead they are getting more sore and big, I hope that means good things but I just feel so low right now. I want Woody and I to finally get our baby.

No sense!!

Men make no sense, or maybe it is just mine. Woody and I just went through all this testing and bought medication to start next cycle to get our BFP and just now he just went on a rant telling me how I am being irresponsible by wanting to become pregnant while I am still going to school and how we should be waiting. WTF?? I swear he is bipolar. I am just going to let this slide. I am not going to even get into an argument with him over this.

We have already been trying for 1 year and 7 months and nothing has happened... I am 30, he is 35. He wants to wait? Why not just say that we are never going to have kids? I know he doesn't mean it but whenever he gets upset or wound up about something, in the case he has finals, he becomes irrational and mean about everything. I really can't stand when he is like this.