waste of time?

Ahhh!!! Alright so I will warn ahead that this is TMI. Woody and I used the conception kit for the first time tonight. I feel like it was such a waste. The point of the whole thing is to put the semen right on the cervix so that it can be right where it needs to be. The problem is that getting the cap on my cervix was impossible. I mean I think I spilled half of the sperm out and I couldn't even get it on my cervix since it was so way up there. I guess this will not be our month. I guess I need to practice putting my fingers up there and getting something up there. I don't know. I am just feeling really down right now. Will I ever be pregnant?