Hurt

I didn't cry myself to sleep last night but I am still really hurt this morning. I feel like if I lose weight now it will only be to please Woody. I don't know how I feel about being with someone who loves me when I look pleasing to him. What will happen when I do get pregnant and I am all huge and pregnant? Will he still like me then? Will he be trying to make me lose weight while pregnant, so I don't get too fat? We are about to move across the country and now I am worried he may not even want me to move with him. I guess I need to talk to him, I just don't know what to say. I know he was in a bad mood last night but does that excuse bad behavior? Does it excuse making me feel like I am the most unattractive person ever? I don't know.. I do know I am hurt.